yesterday, december 5, had the greatest change of events i’ve ever experienced in my life.  i was taking a turn for a bad future, or so my friends and family thought so.  so in the morning, while i was experiencing the worst withdrawal symptoms, feeling delirious from having no sleep, and just sobbing my head off, i talked to the great friends that stepped forward to help me cut the use of drugs.  i told them exactly what was on my mind.  it was the greatest feeling to not hide anything, express my true feelings, and telling them how important they are to me.  i was so clear minded, i felt like i was a child again.

today, i’m sick.  have a shit load of shit to do tomorrow.  i’m fucking sad, really.  i want the drugs again.  i’m a mess.

happy thanksgiving

thanksgiving can suck a turkey’s cock.

i’m waiting for my mom at my cousin’s where my family is eating dinner.  my body is cold all over and i just want to be home alone.

emoshunz

make me ill

goodnight

i love dis kid

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i tried to sleep early last night at about 11:30pm since i had to wake up for work at 4:30. unsuccessful attempt.  william the hamster wakes up at 1am-4am and has a marathon on his wheel.  that hamster.  couldn’t sleep, so i just went online until it was time to get ready for work.  went to starbucks at bayfair and they wouldn’t make me coffee cos they lazy bitches.  work was ok.  life is bland.